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Here Comes the Summer

I know, I know….some of you around the country are experiencing unprecedented snow storms, rainouts, and generally crappy weather. You will have to excuse those of us who live in Portland for not giving a damn. Before this past glorious weekend came along, we hadn’t seen the sunshine since they last gave out a Pulitzer in fiction. I was beginning to think my arms would never turn pink again.

Alas, the forecast says clouds of gray will soon be returning to the Rose City. In order to help keep the dream of Crocodile Mile alive, we turned to some of our 2012 Workshop faculty, posing the question: What books most remind you of summer?

Matthew Zapruder-When I was a kid, right after the end of the school year I would get my parents to take me to the bookstore. I would look at the shelves and pick out the thickest science fiction and fantasy novels, so they would last as long as possible, all through those long summer hours. I think at the beginning of every summer a part of me that still thinks that way. This past summer was busier than usual, with teaching, planning a wedding, etc. But still I had the great pleasure of working my way through a very long novel by my favorite prose writer, Javier Maris, Your Face Tomorrow(published in the U.S. as a trilogy). It’s a very interior book, a kind of spy novel of the intellect, with not much action, which paradoxically creates an enormous amount of tension. I found the desire to sit for hours turning the pages, finding out what was going to happen to the characters, almost unbearably pleasurable. Marias is in my opinion the finest novelist writing today, and I loved every summery second of reading his words.

Ann Hood-My first thought was the Nancy Drew series because I spent the summer I was 8 reading all 100 of them, eating root beer Popsicles in front of the fan.

Dorothy Allison-I go back to James Michener and all those sweaty historical novels he wrote. Hawaii and The Source and such. I think each and every copy I read was gritty with sand and stained with suntan lotion. Childhood Summers of smeary paperbacks and books like bricks. Best part was that when you got sleepy headed you could put the book under your head as a pillow and be up off the dirt while dreaming up your own summer epic.

Robert Boswell- The Great Gatsby is shaped by summer. The novel grows in one’s memory, but it actually covers just one summer, ending in the early fall, leaves falling into the pool alongside Gatsby’s body. Also, there’s that great Alice Munro story “Labor Day Dinner” and the wonderful Cheever stories: “The Summer Farmer” and “The Day the Pig Fell into the Well.”

Antonya Nelson- Alice McDermott’s Child of My Heart. Nostalgic, summer, sweet adolescence

D.A. Powell- The novel that most reminds me of summer is The Member of the Wedding by Carson McCullers. Most of the action takes place over a long, dull summer as a young girl named Frankie is growing into womanhood. Her constant companions are Berenice, the maid, and her kid cousin John Henry. While she loves them both, she also wants desperately to belong to some social circle that’s larger, grander, more glamorous. She changes her name to Jasmine and meets a soldier. She concocts great schemes, and she throws herself into the unrealistic fantasy of moving away to Winter Hill to live with her older brother Jarvis and his soon-to-be wife Janice. Mostly, I love the book for how McCullers’ characters proclaim their love for Hoppin’ John. Frankie tells Berenice and John Henry that she reckons Hoppin’ John would revive her in any situation. She says if there’s ever any doubt, a plate of Hoppin’ John should be waived under her nose. If she doesn’t stir for peas & rice, she must certainly be dead. I, too, feel that way about Hoppin’ John, especially if accompanied by a thick glass of buttermilk and a generous piece of skillet cornbread.

Aimee Bender- Last summer I read The Summer Book by Tove Janssen on a friend’s recommendation and it was wonderful. Scandanavian island summer fragmented stories about a girl and her grandmother and sometimes just pure loveliness.-Bender

Jonathan Dee- I’ve never been to southwestern France, but when as a lad I worked at The Paris Review we decided publish in its entirety a hundred-plus-page novella by W.S. Merwin called “Shepherds,” which later became part of a book called The Lost Upland. In it, a newcomer to an ancient French village takes over and restores to life a ruined garden. That’s it. Every paragraph is a master class in the prose of poets, in Conrad’s ideal of fiction as an art that appeals primarily to, and through, the senses. The heat and smell and loam and majesty and transience of summer do everything for the narrative that plot conventionally does. I left that job two decades ago but I still reread “Shepherds” every year or two.

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The Open Bar Guest DJ Series: Masie Cochran

Almost every Christmas, spring break, and summer dad packed us in the car and took off. Mom came too, but she was like us kids—along for the ride. Over the years, we drove through all the contiguous states stopping at roadside attractions and to take pictures of signs like THIS BLOOD’S FOR YOU, CLUCK U CHICKEN, and BIG WONG’S CHINESE.  We ate at local greasy spoons and camped in national parks. But more than anything, we drove.

We joke that dad never stopped the car for more than fifteen minutes—even at the Grand Canyon. Mom ribs him, saying our longest layovers were in Jackson, TN where our car had broken down and, with luggage in hand, we bought a Dodge Spirit off the lot for the sticker price, and in Roswell, NM at the UFO Museum, years later, when we locked the keys in that same car.

But more than any stops, I remember the ride and the music we listened to. Cassette tapes, Varied Faves, provided the soundtrack. All of the songs and artists were written on the paper insert and each one was labeled: Varied Faves #1, Varied Faves #16, Varied Faves #37. Each cassette could have blues, gospel, country, rock, bluegrass—the thing they had in common was dad liked them, and we did too. Mom didn’t always care for songs like Squeeze Box by The Who, Bryan Adam’s (I Wanna Be) Your Underwear, and, one you’ll find on this playlist, Memphis Women and Chicken by Dan Penn. Even though, most times we didn’t know the meaning, my brothers and I loved growling lines line, “She’s got biscuits in her oven, cornbread in the pan. I get by to see her every chance I can.”

All of the songs on this playlist are by artists from Varied Faves and each song features at least one city or state.

Listen Here

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Lost & Found: Leslie Jamison

Two hundred years before Dante spun his poetry of the inferno, a monk named Marcus wrote his own vision of an absurd and ghoulish hell–one perhaps accessible only through the absurd and ghoulish medium of Middle English.  Here’s Leslie Jamison on “The Vision of Tundale,” weird syllables, lost infernos, and hell in translation.

People enjoy sounding clever about hell. They like aphorisms: “Hell is other people” (Sartre). “Hell is empty! And all the devils are here” (Shakespeare). “Hell is paved with priests’ skulls” (Cervantes). “Hell is paved with infant skulls” (Richard Baxter). Jorge Luis Borges describes an underworld contained inside the monster Acheron, a beastly body wormed with other beastly bodies: fierce lions and fanged adders crawling through its belly.

“Here,” Borges writes, “hell is an animal full of other animals.”

There is something vaguely cannibalistic about the history of hell itself. Dante’s Inferno consumed its predecessors—with its terrifying terza rima, the magnitude of its awful splendor—and rendered them largely obsolete, archaic graveyards of sin. This is certainly true for “The Vision of Tundale,” a twelfth-century Irish poem whose couplets delivered the figure of Acheron—and his stomach full of sinners—to Borges’s gaze in the first place.

Originally penned by an Irish Benedictine monk named Marcus shortly after 1149, “Tundale” was subsequently translated and reformulated by priests and scribes across medieval Europe. Though it became one of the most popular afterlife narratives of the Middle Ages, its only major curator these days is a professor in Kalamazoo. Dr. Robert Foster is one of the few contemporary scholars who have found much value in its haphazard museum of sinners and their just deserts, but even he is quick to acknowledge the clunky brushstrokes of its premise. The knight Tundale, who is supposed to have related his story  to Marcus, isn’t exactly subtle. He’s greedy and gluttonous, lecherous and cruel. He’s not the sort of guy who needs to seek out hell. It would have found him soon enough.

But after an advisory visit from his guardian angel, Tundale embarks on a premature and somewhat disorderly journey through gruesome subterranean territories: giants with long fingernails hang from massive gallows, lascivious monks are ripped apart by plowshares and put back together as monsters, murderers are melted and re-formed in stinking pits.

I find a powerful pleasure in reading about these horrors in Middle English: “He saw within that dongeon / Mony men of relygeon / That full wer of fowle vermin / Bothe withowttyn and withyn.” At first there is just the prickly wash of language, that queasy constellation of hard consonants, y’s curled like rattails, extra e’s dangling like the relics of vestigial limbs. “Every word was once an animal,” said Emerson, and this has never seemed more true. The withowyttyn and withyn rise like terrible twin creatures from the clotted surface of their sentences. Continue reading

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I Was Confused And Just Wanted To Know, by James Yeh

Out on my bike near my apartment I passed a group of boys standing at a crosswalk.

Fuck you, ching chong chang, one of them shouted.

Halfway down the street I decided to turn back around. I was on my way to work, but work could wait. When one of the boys saw me pedaling back toward them, he tapped the others and they straightened their backs and turned their faces away.

Hey guys, I said, pulling up to them. How’s it going?

It was him, said one of boys, the fattest and tallest boy, pointing at the smallest one. Though they continued to look at me, the fat one and the others quickly crossed the street, leaving the smallest one by himself, with me.

How’s it going, I said.

The smallest one smiled in a sarcastic, fixed way.

How’s your bike, he said.

It’s fine, I said, making an effort to stay calm and adult-seeming. Why are you yelling at people? I was confused and just wanting to know.

I’m not pissed, I added, but when I said it the words felt strange, as if I were exaggerating, or performing a kind of role.

The boy remained standing without saying anything, the sarcastic, fixed smile still on his face. Sarcastic and, it occurred to me, somewhat feminine. I am recalling his dark eyes and aggressive posture, how he must have been both angry and afraid, to be called out like this in front of his friends. He stood there for a few seconds, his face frozen like that as I continued asking him questions. Then he said something else I couldn’t hear and hurried to catch up with his friends.

Have a nice day, I called out after him.

At work I thought about him. Not that I had wanted to get him to do or say anything—I remembered my time as a substitute middle school teacher, how difficult it was to get disruptive students to sit away from everyone else and how every time I did it, I felt annoyed and vulnerable, nervous over what would happen if they refused, what I would have had to do next.

That night, over dinner, I told my housemates about what had happened, repeating the part about not wanting to get him to do or say anything. Because he wouldn’t have, I said to them, I had just wanted to get him to realize something, the potential consequence of what you say, that people were, after all, people.

Is that lame? I said.

No, no, said my housemates and they assured me I had done the right thing, or not the wrong thing (which, of course, is actually very different), and then we all went back to eating and talking about other things. But I did not feel convinced. I thought about the fattest and tallest one, how he had sided with me. I found his cowardice repulsive.

Don’t rat out your friends, I wanted to have said to him, then. I wondered if the smallest one might get him back somehow.

Later that week, while riding to work, I came across a similar-looking group of boys around the same age, waiting to cross the same street. As I passed by I heard them saying things in my direction, in aggressive tones—something, something, “nigga,” “bike.”

I looked up and, for a moment, I thought I saw the boy I had talked to before, flexing his arms and shoulders as if to shove someone—me. This boy’s hair looked different, more dramatic and billowing, but I thought I recognized the same angry, feminine face.

In that instant it occurred to me that I had not at all considered what might happen if I ran into them again. After all, we did live in the same neighborhood. I thought through the possibilities: of having to change my regular bike route to work, of looking over my shoulder while in line at the all-night bodega.

I stopped the next block up to look back and there they were, still there. The shortest one was turned towards me.

I love you! he shouted and right then he sounded so warm and familiar, I could only believe it.

James Yeh is a founding editor of Gigantic. His stories and nonfiction appear in NOON, Fence, Vice, and PEN America, as well as in several anthologies. A recipient of fellowships from the MacDowell Colony and Columbia University, he is a 2011 Center for Fiction NYC Emerging Writers Fellow. He lives in Brooklyn and maintains a Twitter account here.


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Carte du Jour: Foodie People

When I ask writers for a food essay, they sometimes say they aren’t really foodie people, or don’t come from foodie people. This doesn’t mean that they have no story to tell about food, however; it often turns out that they have a more interesting story than foodie people who do come from foodie people. Instead they cling to a single hard-won memory: the egg sandwich wrapped in waxed paper, the occasional loaf of fresh bread, the red currants served with biscuits and whipped cream in an otherwise ramshackle childhood. (There are exceptions. A friend of mine once told me, rather grudgingly, how his grandfather butchered pigs and cured prosciutto in the garage of his New Jersey house, adding doubtfully, “I don’t know, is that really all that special?”)

People seem to feel that loving food and writing about it manages to be both louche and twee and maybe they’re right: all those rhapsodic descriptions of oozing cream, all those fucking cake pops. It gets to be a bit much. The other day I saw a recipe for teensy cakes cooked individually inside eggshells and it cast a poison-yellow blight across my soul, just for a moment.

Anyway, everyone assumes a food essay must be an extended appreciation for some rare or totemic item, and it’s true that there are plenty of essays like that, and also that I love them and make no apology for that. But there is a delightful, crabby exuberance to be found in the exploration of really terrible food. Sometimes it is the wasteland that sets the stage: MFK Fisher’s childhood was dominated by an abstemious grandmother with stomach issues and a Christian loathing of pleasure; whenever I think of this awful woman I think of the most dispiriting phrase in the English language: “boiled dressing.” Fisher had a few moments of gustatory pleasure as a child—that was her egg sandwich, plus the dishes made by a family cook who seemed just fine until she murdered her mother and herself—but by the time Fisher married young and moved to France she was ready to branch out in more ways than one. In her best work the food is paired with a dark little twist, be it wartime privation, loss, death, loneliness, or some unmet sexual craving.

Even more fun is when it isn’t the emotional setting that adds that necessary prickliness, but a truly matchless culinary failure. I’m not talking about mothers who served a lot of casseroles–mere boredom is not enough. I mean items like baloney cups, formed by placing a slice of baloney in the microwave with a chunk of quivering Velveeta on top and heating them up until the meat contracted into a tortured little cup of cheese. I have never actually eaten one of these, which my sister in law apparently ate a lot as a child, but sometimes when my guard is down the image of that fleshy, puckered cup floats across my brain.  It has that kind of power.

This is a too-little-traveled narrative avenue for writers who have encountered real crime-against-nature food, or who have unknowingly caused themselves to be served something like a medieval-style herring pie. People think they only get to write about food if they had an Italian nonna or just returned from a jaunt to Bangkok, but I’m telling you, baloney-cup-eaters, there is room for you, too.

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PLOTTO: THE MASTER CONTEST OF ALL PLOTS, Week 3

“FIRST AID TO TROUBLED WRITERS,” the Boston Globe announced in September 1928—“GRINDS OUT PLOTS WITHOUT ANY FALSE START.”

Calling all writers who are obsessed with plot and obsessives who can write a mean story. We want you!

THE RULES:

Every Wednesday we will post a prompt from William Wallace Cook’s classic how to manual Plotto: The Mater Book of All Plots. Simply use the prompt below to write your own original 500 word (or less) story.

In the book, {A}= a male protagonist. {B}= a female protagonist but for our purposes, feel free to write from the point of view of any gender.

Mini-Plottos, 500 words or fewer, must be submitted by the following Monday at 5:00 PST. Send to: theopenbar@tinhouse.com with PLOTTO CONTEST as the subject line.

This Week’s Prompt:

A receives half of an important message, X, and is looking for a stranger who has the other half.

THE RICHES:

Winners will be announced each Wednesday and will receive a hardcover copy of Plotto, online publication on the Tin House Blog and be entered in the Final Master Plot Challenge.

Plotto: The Master Book of All Plots

A classic how-to manual, William Wallace Cook’s Plotto is one writer’s personal method, painstakingly diagrammed for the benefit of others. The theory itself may be simple—“Purpose, opposed by Obstacle, yields Conflict”—but Cook takes his “Plottoist” through hundreds of situations and scenarios, guiding the reader’s hand through a dizzying array of “purposes” and “obstacles.”

Read a posthumous conversation with “the man who deforested Canada” William Wallace Cook here.

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Master Plotto Week Two Winner: Ian Bassingthwaighte

This was an international week for the Master Plotto Contest with writers from Indonesia, London, Ireland, South America, and all over the US submitting entries.

Our editorial board was impressed by the various ways highwaymen (mostly on horseback) were able to steal the love letters, bills, and packages of an unsuspecting public.

Congratulations go out to Ian Bassingthwaighte, whose story reminded us of Sam Peckinpah and the importance of letters left undelivered.

Last Week’s Prompt: A, a highwayman, is robbing the mails


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Postage


I point my rifle at the horse’s most fragile organ and fire. Then I sit by the body while the heat departs. I don’t cry because highwaymen don’t love their horses. We don’t love our horses. I have never once been in love with my horse!

I put my head on its chest but it’s not heaving anymore. So I think about my poor dead mother and cry about her instead.

We are not empty men! Not just vessels.

I clobber the postman to keep him sleeping. He’s in the grass, still breathing, bleeding just a little bit, clutching his bag of letters.

Who wants the mail anyway, he can keep it.

Remember the mantra: math, murder, profit.

Practice it: count men before you shoot them, take what can be sold, but always leave what’s sentimental in case loved ones come later and discover what you’ve done.

A robbery-gone-wrong is poetry in retrospect. Very circular, what-goes-around-comes-around. But while it’s happening—that is something different. Because here I am, not a bad man. Not a bad man who started his day with not a dead horse.

Who robs the mails: collectors of sentiment, maybe. Collectors of love notes and contracts and apology cards. Who robs the mails! Collectors of old photographs that are slightly burned at the edges, of mittens shipped to newborns, of impromptu propaganda, like postcards from distant and happy places that are neither of those things, not really.

I clobber the postman again to keep him sleeping then give him my coat to keep him warm.

Since it’s quiet now: in the distant past I was a farmer. Before that I was a child. And before that I wasn’t made yet, which means I was dead or something like it. For literally an infinite amount of time, try counting.

I time travel via memory and I’m doing it now: the postman is riding his horse, moving along, doing his various deliveries. I am galloping toward him. In the interim between this moment and the one where we collide, I begin taking measures. The size of his body, the size of his arms, the size of his pouch. The chance that I could take him.

His pouch that is definitely filled with letters and possibly filled with the money spent to ship them.

Instead of saying howdy I charge up and hit him from behind, and that is how everything begins.

Then more violence happens in the way it always does—quickly. At some point in the fray: the leg on my horse pops then bends in a way it shouldn’t.

Coincidentally: horses are better vehicles than pillows, so I stop trying to sleep on mine. I stand up. I pet the postman’s horse. That one is sort of milling around without any real allegiance.

I clobber the postman again but he dies this time. I don’t cry because highwaymen don’t love the men they kill. I take his money and his horse but I leave his yellow hat.

Ian Bassingthwaighte’s work has appeared in a variety of publications, including Event, Guernica, Adbusters, and many others. Last year he was a Glimpse/National Geographic correspondent and he recently returned from Egypt, where he was a Fulbright fellow for fiction.

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Tonight!!! The Tin House Science Fair

For those of you in Portland, we hope to see you at our little party this evening. Doors open at 7:30.

For those of you elsewhere, why not be impulsive? Hop on a train, buy a plane ticket, commandeer a ship.

Or better yet……

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Launching Today…

You’ll Want To Bookmark This.

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Web Extra:The Catalogue of Fantastic Inventions

When I was a kid, the periodic delivery of the latest Hammacher Schlemmer or Sharper Image catalogue was a highly anticipated event. I’d sit cross-legged on the front porch, eagerly flipping through the shiny pages and circling the futuristic items that would transform our mundane home into something out of Inspector Gadget. This was before iPhones and iPads, when my idea of cool technology was an electric blue shower radio or a heated, full body massage chair. I did convince Mom and Dad to buy the former; it broke within a week. But I didn’t care much. Soon, there would be another catalogue—and another must-have toy.

Over the years, the pace of our consumer culture has only grown more rapid. Today’s novelty is tomorrow’s commodity. Our desire for the product du jour morphs from want to need faster than you can say Kindle. Some have called this trend disturbing. Others, like French artist Jacques Carelman, have called it hilarious.

In 1969, Carelman published his own catalogue of sorts. His Catalogue of Fantastic Inventions contained precisely what its title suggests: objects that make perfect sense in theory, but are totally nonfunctional in practice. Examples include a glass-headed hammer for “those delicate jobs,” a remote-control iron for doing chores without getting up, and a two-piece jigsaw puzzle of the Mona Lisa, “ideal for inexperienced beginners and those not blessed with patience.” Carelman’s inventions did not exist in real life. The 200 sketches that comprise his book were meant as parodies of the items one typically finds in a mail-order catalogue. “My objects are perfectly useless,” he said, “the opposite of the gadgets our consumer society is so greedy for.”

The first edition of Carelman’s book sold 100,000 copies in France, and was subsequently published in the United States. A few years later, Carelman decided to build his popular illustrations into three-dimensional objects. His collection became a critically acclaimed traveling exhibit, finding audiences at the Louvre and in New York. Today, his “coffeepot for masochists” (in which the handle and spout are on the same side), his “lace condom,” his “comb for bald men,” and many other absurd creations are still available for purchase. The book, however, has virtually disappeared from shelves. It seems that Carelman’s marvelous Catalogue, like so many novelties before it, has gone the way of the Walkman.

Still, there are lessons to be learned from Carelman’s whimsical take on consumer culture. “I make people take another look at things that are so familiar they don’t see them anymore,” he said of his work. “I clean people’s eyes.” This idea of “cleaning people’s eyes” applies to all art forms, particularly to literature. As readers, our favorite books are often the ones that strike us as surprising, yet real. As writers, our goal is to depict the ordinary in extraordinary ways. When we hit on a detail, a gesture, or a phrase that brings to light some small truth that has gone unrecognized, it has been a good day at the keyboard. For me, these moments don’t happen often, but I try to remain conscious of this question: How can I turn the familiar on its head?

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Lost & Found: Don Waters

Knut Hamsun was both Nobel laureate and Nazi collaborator; the protagonist of his novel, Hunger, is both suffering artist par excellence and repellent misanthrope.  Don Waters takes on these incongruities, and the distance between the real and romanticized writing life, in this Lost & Found from our vault.

In my early twenties, I was introduced to the Norwegian writer Knut Hamsun by way of Paul Auster.  Auster had just published Hand to Mouth, a memoir about struggling to scratch out a meager existence in his twenties while trying to write.  I was in a similar situation, and I devoured his book.  Not long after, at my local bookstore, I came across Hamsun’s Hunger, published in 1890.  I’d never heard of the man or the novel.  But I was drawn to the book because Auster had written the introduction, saying, “Something new is happening here, some new thought about the nature of art is being proposed in Hunger.”

Back in my apartment, I read the opening paragraph: “All of this happened while I was walking around starving in Christiania—that strange city no one escapes from until it has left its mark on him…”  I finished the book that night, astounded by its ferocity, language, and now-ness.  The book could have been published the day before.  Here was a hundred-year-old novel that felt contemporary and true.  Of course, my own “hand-to-mouth” way of life colored my initial interpretation of the book:  I believed that it was a testament to the struggling artist in a world unkind to artists.

Here is what happens:  An unnamed narrator living in Christiania—now Oslo—spends large parts of his days sitting in church cemeteries, walking the streets, and searching for ways to survive.  Our narrator is so poor that “[he] didn’t even have a comb left, or a book to read when [he] felt hopeless.”  His possessions are so few that he only has “a few dozens sheets of paper,” a pencil, and his mind, which erodes due to starvation.  Unable to secure a job, he tries to write articles for the Morning Times, hoping to earn enough money to survive a while longer.  Exceedingly hungry, he places wood shavings in his mouth to ward off pangs; once, he tries biting off his finger.

One would think all of this would elicit sympathy, but sympathizing with Hamsun’s narrator is difficult.  He makes proclamations that he’s better than the society in which he lives.  His desire to appear respectable is so great that he stubbornly refuses money that will feed him.  He refers to his fellow citizens as “creatures.”  He is ashamed by his poverty, and he is spellbound by it.

The narrator never apologizes for his ranting or lying; in fact, he draws pleasure from avoiding the truth.  He is shown as he is: his hair falling out, debating whether to pawn the buttons on his coat, talking to himself in bursts of near-madness.  Just when we believe he might die or lose his mind from hunger, an article gets accepted at the paper, a grocer accidentally gives him money, and suddenly a week goes by “in joy and gladness.”  He continues to write (“I had three or four essays in the works”), but soon enough he runs out of money again, his suffering continues as before, and in the end he boards a ship in the harbor and leaves Christiania behind. Continue reading

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Perseids, by Emma Cline

A special Flash Friday edition of From The Vault, where we feature favorites from issues past. The story first appeared as a “New Voice” Tin House #28.

We live in Tasiilaq, the eastern tip of Greenland, where two jutting coasts curve in on each other like crab claws. We are ruddy and plump and strong. The land around us is white and gray, white and gray, until August, when the broad ice belt begins to drip, drip, melt, shift down the river in blocks to the south. Some grow up and leave, those in the west, those who are more connected—the main airport, the capital city—the sons and daughters of insurance agents and doctors. They go south to Canada where things are more like TV, sunny and iridescent. We stay. We are the sons and daughters of seal hunters; we know the old ways and over our beds hang carved animals of tusk and bone. When we were children we were bundled and tied and carried under miles of stars to the fjords of the north, where dark shadows lumber in the narrows of snow, snow on every side, down and around and catching in our eyelashes and melting down our faces. Once we saw the huge mass of a polar bear fallen in the snow, saw our fathers tie its paws and move it across the flat, misty shore of the arctic lakes.

We are few and we are different. Our language has distinct lilts and rolls; it is lower and softer, musical, is passed between neighbors, used to calm the children in dark rooms when the wind pulls the snow off the ground and flings it into the sky. We visit the mainland once a month, taking the helicopter to Kulusuk, the big blades churning over our heads. We watch the cliffs drop and our brightly painted houses disappear into the rocks. The store there is big. Glazed teenagers with jeans and sweatshirts work the register, looking to meet somebody new, exciting. They know who we are. We dress in the old clothes, we are not pierced or decorated, we spend very little and do not leaf through the magazines at the counter or pop gum into cloudy pink bubbles. They nod at us, indifferent. The south pulls on them and they are forever pointed like compasses in the direction of Ontario, Vancouver, Quebec City, places of durable vowels and consonants, of four seasons and respite from the ragged edges of this place. We are a reminder of all that is strange and separate here—the midnight sun, children roller-skating down the main road at three o’clock in the morning, gliding and shouting under the dark, slow burn. Time is nonexistent for five months of the year; dreamlike we float through our lives. The northern lights float themselves across the sky like slow curtains—blue, green, disappearing and reappearing. Our mothers never sleep; they sit at the windows and watch the town from high-backed chairs. In the mornings we find their apple peelings in the sink, like tracks.

We have no hospital in Tasiilaq. We are born in damp kitchens, in a rush of boiling water and blood. High cliff walls jut over our houses and cast shadows across our bedroom doors. We go to school in a one-room schoolhouse built into a mountainside at the edge of town. We learn astronomy and mythology from waxy textbooks stacked against the walls. There are no desks. We walk to school in hordes in the winter, holding gloved hands and fighting the snow across the street. We remember the girl who froze in the school yard when we were five. They found her huddled and solid against the pipes. We walked to the lake and sang for her after school that day, solemnly arranging sticks and leaves on the frozen banks.

We remember the day they came, in the middle of a clear and burning June. The reporters, the strangers with white faces. They filmed in the northern fjord, by the lake. They stayed in city hall. They slept all night and we saw them in the mornings, setting up cameras on spidery black legs and framing shots. They were loud, complaining of the cold. We watched their alien crane bend toward the lake and lift something out, something frozen and gray and fused together in a mass of ice. These people gasped and snapped pictures. We stood silent behind huge generators that pulsed and melted the snow at their bases. They talked about “child and mother,” “frozen solid,” “recently died.” “Mystery,” they said.

But it wasn’t a mystery. It was Annuk and her baby, Annuk who had died in childbirth in the spring of last year when the ice began to give and crack. She died in her bed, her stomach still large and loose from the baby. The baby was red and scummy and screaming. We knew what was coming. In some places, much father north than we will ever go, when the mother dies, the father suffocates the baby, or buries it alive. Here, we let them rest in the lake. Our parents lowered Annuk’s body into the water, her baby waiting on the shore, warm and crying in our arms. Annuk’s hair floated across her face and slapped wetly against her mouth. The baby followed, stopping its crying when it felt the water. We watched the dark shapes drift, the baby moving its fat arms silently and kicking until the water rose and the baby was gone.

People on the mainland are starting to talk; we can see it in the way they look at us across counters and through windows, with a hard silver stare. Those who are unable to believe in the old ways go south, where life loses this rawness. Those of us left, we remember the baby, its skin thick and moist, the water lifting its arms out and away and its big wide eyes never closing, not for a moment.

Some late-summer nights we meet at the school, all of us silently converging on the mountainside. This is where we know each other best. We walk onto the frozen lake, as far as we can, until we are surrounded by a wall of rock and whiteness. The midnight sun doesn’t pass the horizon; it hovers there and burns orange over the land, making the ice beneath us glow and mottle. We lie on the ice in our layers of furs and skins, connected by an arm touching a leg or a head resting on a lap. We lie there and feel the air heavy with cold, searching the sky for the Perseids. We are East Inuits; we are young; we are full of something that startles strangers and makes our parents pause. It takes us all night to walk to the cairn, the town’s highest point, where we can see the ocean spread thin and curve to the horizon. We stand there all night, the eerie, cold sunshine pulsing over the town below.

Seals are migrating to the outermost islands. Our fathers are moving with them. They will not return for weeks.

We will be here, in Tasiilaq, waiting.

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Das Kolumne: The Importance of Being Affected

Not too long ago, the world of writers was a haven for affectations. It is common knowledge that as a young man William Faulkner walked with a cane and pretended to be suffering from a war wound that was the result of his nonexistent combat service in WWI. But did you know that he also ate his coffee with a spoon like it was soup?  Did you know that Robert Frost was addicted to bee stings or that D.H. Lawrence was a self-identifying warlock? The tradition of absurd, affected behavior surrounding the act of writing has been an important part of literary history, and yet the vast majority of contemporary writers seem to have turned their back on it. Due to the prevalence of MFA programs, writers nowadays are predominately a bunch of hard-working, craft-centric nerds. Instead of forcing bees to sting them or dabbling in the occult, they all talk about their favorite books and have spouses. This lack of eccentricity among writers today is upsetting in the only way that something in a first world country can be upsetting. By which I mean, it is boring.

Figure 1: Lawrence Ferlinghetti

Those who argue against affected behavior tend to make the claim that it can distract writers from the actual craft of writing. Of course, this could not be further from the truth. There are many instances in which affectations have played a crucial role in a writer’s creative process. Ford Maddox Ford wrote the first draft of The Good Soldier by repeatedly shooting a bow and arrow at a typewriter, whereas John Dos Passos completed his U.S.A. trilogy while he was high on owl urine. Lawrence Ferlinghetti also wrote some of his most beloved work while wearing a mask. Conversely, he often insisted on tending goal in ice hockey while equipped only with a steno pad and a pencil. This prevented him from developing an otherwise promising career in professional hockey due to the fact that The Berkeley Slapshots could no longer afford to insure him. Therefore, Ferlinghetti’s affectations actually forced him to write full-time.

Others may try to make the argument that the self-indulgent behavior associated with writerly affectations can end up being socially irresponsible or even dangerous. There is of course the unfortunate incident in which Ayn Rand terrorized a small town in upstate New York by circling it for several hours in a helicopter. Rand spent the better part of a day dropping down bricks and occasionally buzzing the locals. According to several witnesses, one could hear Rand’s laughter even over the deafening thump of the helicopter’s main rotor. However, it is important to distinguish between an affectation and a rampage. If Rand had been wearing a monocle or if she had written witticisms on the bricks, one could possibly consider this episode to be an affectation. As it stands, it was just a senseless act of heli-terror.

It is also worth mentioning that many writers have adopted affectations in an attempt to give back to society. Gordon Lish was a volunteer firefighter for a short spell in the 1970’s.  Though his tenure as a firefighter was brief, Lish went on to wear the helmet for years, thus helping raise awareness about firefighting. Toward the end of his life, Ernest Hemingway also founded a free summer camp for all the people he had ever punched. What’s more, Marquis De Sade once famously attempted to develop a social program that would provide free spankings for the elderly. This plan was ill-received, but from De Sade’s point of view the endeavor was clearly full of good intentions.

Whatever the case, the simple truth of the matter is that affectations are a healthy and essential part of the literary experience. With that in mind, some potential affectations have been listed below in the hopes that any writers reading this column might decide to take them up:

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PLOTTO: THE MASTER CONTEST OF ALL PLOTS, Week 2

“FIRST AID TO TROUBLED WRITERS,” the Boston Globe announced in September 1928—“GRINDS OUT PLOTS WITHOUT ANY FALSE START.”

Calling all writers who are obsessed with plot and obsessives who can write a mean story. We want you!

THE RULES:

Every Wednesday we will post a prompt from William Wallace Cook’s classic how to manual Plotto: The Mater Book of All Plots. Simply use the prompt below to write your own original 500 word (or less) story.

In the book, {A}= a male protagonist. {B}= a female protagonist but for our purposes, feel free to write from the point of view of any gender.

Mini-Plottos, 500 words or fewer, must be submitted by the following Monday at 5:00 PST. Send to: theopenbar@tinhouse.com with PLOTTO CONTEST as the subject line.

The Week’s Prompt:

A, a highwayman, is robbing the mails.

THE RICHES:

Winners will be announced each Wednesday and will receive a hardcover copy of Plotto, online publication on the Tin House Blog and be entered in the Final Master Plot Challenge.

Plotto: The Master Book of All Plots

A classic how-to manual, William Wallace Cook’s Plotto is one writer’s personal method, painstakingly diagrammed for the benefit of others. The theory itself may be simple—“Purpose, opposed by Obstacle, yields Conflict”—but Cook takes his “Plottoist” through hundreds of situations and scenarios, guiding the reader’s hand through a dizzying array of “purposes” and “obstacles.”

Read a posthumous conversation with “the man who deforested Canada” William Wallace Cook here.

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Master Plotto Week One Winner: Cortney McLellan

This romantic round of Plotto inspired stories had us reminiscing about old flames, listening to mix tapes, and eating large amounts of chocolate.

Congratulations go out to Cortney McLellan, this week’s contest winner, whose story reminded us of American Beauty and how it’s sometimes hard to love the one your with.

Be sure to check back later today for this week’s prompt.

Last week’s prompt: A, married to B, is haunted by memories of a former sweetheart.


Twenty-Eight-Inch Hedge

I scrub dishes, fold pants, pair socks. Friday nights my husband and I read magazines at the table. Our hmms and huhs rise from our mouths to mingle in the dustless air.

My mom calls and asks why the boredom. ”Dullness is a sin in the young,” she says.

“Drama is a sin in the old,” I say.

She’s only visited once since we left the city. She was like a teenager, teasing how the bushes in the sub were all the same height. Any higher than twenty-eight inches, and the view to the street gets obscured. A child might run out and get hit by a car.

“What are you painting?” she asks, and I want to hang up. If I explained that you can’t paint when your mind suggests only bananas and kittens, she would lecture and we would fight. There’d be months of silence. She is not in good health. She could die and my last words to her would be angry and my last image of her unpleasant. I’d criticize her alcoholic boyfriend and she’d confide in him and at her funeral he would glare.

“Oh, something red,” I say.

The day I got married, she shook me by the shoulders, listing my ex-boyfriends and praising their passion. “Keith, Tony, Marcus,” she said. Cheater, jail, heroin overdose, I wanted to say. But we were in church, I was wearing a veil, and I needed some peace.

“And George.” My husband’s name is an accusation every time. “George?”

“He will never hurt me.”

“He wouldn’t get excited in an earthquake, Fay.”

But disasters are her thing. Boyfriends who yell louder than they laugh, hit harder than they hug. Their ups and downs slamming us around like racquetballs.

“I’m not into earthquakes,” I said.

“Child,” she said. Then I pinned on her gardenia corsage, she shut up, and I got married.

She talks, she lectures, I pace before the front window. There’s a boy outside, seventeen maybe, crashing around on his skateboard in the cul-de-sac. He has strong legs and gets going fast before shooting himself up and off a plywood ramp. He flies for a second before falling. When he lands he is Marcus exactly. Marcus that day in college when we walked together and he did skateboard tricks for me all over campus. In the evening we sat in the grass, Marcus in just the position as this boy outside my window, the boy lying in the street on the other side of my twenty-eight-inch hedge. I can smell his sweat and something tingles and spreads across my chest and I want to go and sweep his hair from his eyes. But Marcus had always wanted more excitement, and he found it in heroin so lucky for him.

“You there?” my mom asks.

“Of course.” I’m here. I can blink and nod and be just here. Just in today, a soft day with nothing hidden inside.

A native of Michigan and Alaska, Cortney McLellan now lives with her family in Azerbaijan. Her stories have appeared in Storyglossia, Monkeybicycle, and cream city review. She is excited to begin studying for her MFA this summer at the University of Southern Maine.

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The Art of the Sentence: Jessica Handler

“Who, or why, or which, or what, is the Akond of SWAT?”
-Edward Lear, “The Akond of SWAT

This bangs around in my head without provocation, a nonsense animal chomping on its own tail with relentless rhythm and unsubtle craziness. It’s the first line of Edward Lear’s doggerel poem, “The Akond of SWAT,” and it’s also a full sentence, without the line breaks of the remaining twenty-two stanzas. The heavy beat on the last word (fully capitalized should you miss the emphasis), hits like a cymbal crash. I’d like to have heard The Shaggs play this sentence.

“The Akond of SWAT” came into my consciousness about the time I was first reading on my own, and the delight in saying the sentence aloud and feeling  the speed and promise as the words gathered, alliterating each first “W,” until the slam-bang of the nonsense words at the conclusion, started a hunger for delicious language that’s still gnawing away. I still don’t know who, or why, or which, or what, is the Akond of SWAT, but it’s tasty to ask.

Jessica Handler is the author of the memoir Invisible Sisters. Her work has appeared in More Magazine, Southern Arts Journal, Ars Medica, as well as the current issue of Tin House. A teacher of creative writing, she lives in Atlanta, Georgia.

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Lost & Found: Tom Grimes

It might be a stretch to call Travels with Charley a lost book, but it’s certainly one that speaks to the tradition of getting lost in the search for America.  Here’s Tom Grimes on Steinbeck’s troubled vision of America as seen from the open road.

Does any writer ever truly capture an era or become the voice of a generation? I don’t think so. Art is artifice, invention, not reportage. So when John Steinbeck announces in his 1962 memoir, Travels with Charley, that he’s heading out in search of America, he really means, to me, that he’s heading out in search of his projection of America.

Travels with Charley appeared less than five years after On the Road, and yet Jack Kerouac’s rapturous fantasies of America find their absolute antithesis in Steinbeck’s ambivalent and often dyspeptic vision of what is ostensibly the same country. Kerouac, the optimist, was in search of his future; Steinbeck, the realist, was in search of his past.

The books’ divergence of tone and expectation can be explained by their opposing definitions of “the road.” In his 1930s classic, The Grapes of Wrath, Steinbeck traced the Great Depression’s dustbowl parade from the economically ravaged Midwest to the mythic promise of California. But twenty years later, that novel’s questing, archetypal hero, Tom Joad, wouldn’t recognize his literary offspring, Kerouac’s Sal Paradise. Joad fled poverty, hunger, and hopelessness; Paradise ran towards a luscious, abundant, and enthralling America. Tom’s rickety, overloaded truck crawled along potholed roads; Sal hitchhiked across the smooth precursors of our interstates. The speed and exuberance of Kerouac’s ecstasy conjured up vague and generalized revelations that were the exact opposite of Steinbeck’s concrete and vivid imagery. Tom Joad would never suggest, as Sal does, that “the prettiest girls in the world live in Des Moines.” Nor would he believe Sal when he says when he says, “I sat down in a kind of homemade diner. I heard a great laugh, the greatest laugh in the world, and here came this rawhide oldtimer Nebraska farmer… He didn’t have a care in the world…It was the spirit of the West sitting right next to me. I wished I knew his whole raw life.” Hours later, Sal imagines “a dark and dusty night on the plains, and the faces of Nebraska families everywhere wandering by…with their rosy children looking at everything with awe.” Steinbeck empathized with migrant workers; Kerouac romanticized dharma bums. He left behind the hardscrabble grimness of Steinbeck’s road and composed his own, imbuing it with a halcyon simplicity. Thus in lieu of Steinbeck’s working-class hero, we encounter Kerouac’s naïve portrait of a laborer, the so-called “spirit of the West.”

This was in 1957. Barely half a decade later, Kerouac’s cotton-candy America had disappeared, for Steinbeck had decided that “The new American finds his challenge and his love in traffic-choked streets, skies nested in smog, choking with the acids of industry, the screech of rubber and houses leashed in against one another while the townlets wither a time and die.” Now, rather than tracking the journey of an archetype, Steinbeck travels with his blue poodle, Charley. And whereas he’d once plotted Tom Joad’s mythic westward quest, Steinbeck now relies on a map. His America had become atomized, alien; and although he and Charley make their journey during JFK’s brief reign, the route takes them far from the age’s numinous and fictive Camelot. Continue reading

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From The Vault: Lan Samatha Chang

This week we bring you Lan Samantha Chang’s Readable Feast from issue 28. Warning: don’t read this before lunch.

The End of Laughter
Lan Samantha Chang

How can I tell the story of our love affair that never took place? There are no words for it. It was not a liaison, a dalliance, or a fling. It was not friendship and not family. It’s an attachment, I would say to you. An attachment with no usefulness in real life.

It happened in a city on a faraway coast. In that hilled city, winter shadows lengthened early, and so our attachment flourished in the dark. Our darkness was not frightening or cold. Our darkness gleamed with happiness, it was sustaining; it wrapped around us like a curtain and kept us safe from gossip. You were beautiful and I was old, and we were both with other people. We were not allowed to touch. We never held hands. We never made love and so, instead, we ate.

We ate hamburgers and sushi and pancakes with pecans. We ate chicken fingers, tapenades, French chocolates, and ice-cream shakes. To carve out time, we had late lunches, early dinners, and frequent duplicate meals, reassuring each other that we had not eaten recently and could use a bite. We ate for love, for sympathy and fun. We ate out of confusion and emptiness and lust. We ate our meals in public and kept our true hungers a secret. Continue reading

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So, You’re Going to a Writers’ Conference?

Disclaimer: The writer of this article is a past participant of the Tin House Writers’ Workshop. She was in no way encouraged—either financially, or otherwise—to say that the Tin House Writers’ Workshop is better than any other writers’ conference, though, of course, it is.

Amendment to Disclaimer: Blackmail is the currency we trade favors for.

So, you’re going to your first writers’ conference! How excited are you!? First things first: put your right hand around your left shoulder and your left hand around your right shoulder and give yourself a hug! It takes courage, patience and a substantial amount of financial sacrifice to consider oneself “a writer”, but you are going to a writers’ conference. You got it done!

Regardless of where you’re going to, or for how long, we’ve compiled some been-there-done-that tips to help you have the best, safest, and healthiest workshop of your life. Without further ado, writer, here they are:

Have your elevator speech ready: As a writer, you spend most of your time gallivanting in an inflatable fun palace where people share your love of Garamond and get your snarky jokes. Alas, not everyone lives in your bouncy fun house. Many people do not understand what a writers’ conference is, and this will include the supervisor who is allowing you time off and the people who are going to be looking after your offspring/pet(s)/plant(s) while you’re away. You would be well advised to come up with a one-line description of the place that you are going that does not make you sound like a fanatic narcissist. Can’t come up with one? Use mine: “I’m going to a summer camp for writers.” Yes, it makes me sound like the ambassador of dweeb, but it’s better than, “I’m going to study under the illustrious writer such and such to have him reconsider the syntax of my thirty-five page prose poem in the bucolic town of whosie-whatsit….” Snooze.

What to pack: Because of Machiavellian event planning, many conferences will stick you in a small room with a complete stranger to sleep. Here’s what you’ll need to make the most of this situation:

• Ear plugs

• Scented candles

• Flip flops, a robe, towels. (Be aware that “linen service” means “two terry hand cloths.”)

• Ok, I was just testing you with the scented candles. A lot of people out there have olfactory sensitivities, be courteous!

• A framed picture of your cat

• Clip-on reading light

• Aspirin

• If you’re anything like the roommate I had at the [redacted] writers’ conference, you’ll want to bring a pack of Post-Its to write passive aggressive notes on. Just stick ‘em on your roommate’s pillow. Yes!

• Sleep mask

• Flask

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We’re Back! PLOTTO: THE MASTER CONTEST OF ALL PLOTS, Week 1

“FIRST AID TO TROUBLED WRITERS,” the Boston Globe announced in September 1928—“GRINDS OUT PLOTS WITHOUT ANY FALSE START.”

Calling all writers who are obsessed with plot and obsessives who can write a mean story. We want you! Again!

THE RULES:

Every Wednesday we will post a prompt from William Wallace Cook’s classic how to manual Plotto: The Mater Book of All Plots. Simply use the prompt below to write your own original 500 word (or less) story.

In the book, {A}= a male protagonist. {B}= a female protagonist but for our purposes, feel free to write from the point of view of any gender.

Mini-Plottos, 500 words or fewer, must be submitted by the following Monday at 5:00 PST. Send to: theopenbar@tinhouse.com with PLOTTO CONTEST as the subject line.

The Week’s Prompt:

A, married to B, is haunted by memories of a former sweetheart.

THE RICHES:

Winners will be announced each Wednesday and will receive a hardcover copy of Plotto, online publication on the Tin House Blog and be entered in the Final Master Plot Challenge.

Plotto: The Master Book of All Plots

A classic how-to manual, William Wallace Cook’s Plotto is one writer’s personal method, painstakingly diagrammed for the benefit of others. The theory itself may be simple—“Purpose, opposed by Obstacle, yields Conflict”—but Cook takes his “Plottoist” through hundreds of situations and scenarios, guiding the reader’s hand through a dizzying array of “purposes” and “obstacles.”

Read a posthumous conversation with “the man who deforested Canada” William Wallace Cook here.

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The Art of the Sentence: Charles Harper Webb

“Her look first grazed the tops of the displaced people’s heads and then revolved downwards slowly, the way a buzzard glides and drops in the air until it alights on the carcass.”
—Flannery O’Connor, “The Displaced Person”

This sentence describes Mrs. Shortley—one of O’Connor’s self-righteously wrathful wives-of-hired-men—taking her first look at a family of Polish refugees whom she sees will threaten her family’s status, power, and livelihood on the McIntyre farm.

The sentence moves slowly at first, then speeds up the way a buzzard’s circles do, narrowing as the bird descends on what will be its meal. This is accomplished with a regular iambic meter, accelerated by anapests as the sentence extends. The sentence can, in fact, be lineated as a not-so-rough iambic trimeter:

Her look first grazed the tops
of the displaced people’s heads
and then revolved downwards
slowly, the way a buzzard
glides and drops in the air
until it alights on the carcass.

O’Connor’s comparison of Mrs. Shortley’s gaze to a buzzard settling on carrion gives a realistic and visceral sense of a critical and menacing “once over”; but the metaphor is also grimly comic. It’s no coincidence that the buzzard (funny word!) makes frequent appearances in cartoons. The sentence shows Mrs. Shortley’s buzzard-fear—”Something smells here; but is it safe to land?”—moving toward determination to destroy the Poles. In thirty-two words, O’Connor concretizes anger, fear, suspicion, and disdain, along with a lethal enmity that will claim several victims by the story’s end.

Charles Harper Webb was a rock guitarist for fifteen years and is now a licensed psychotherapist and professor at California State University. He has written five books of poetry, including Shadow Ball , and Liver, which won the 1999 Felix Pollak Prize. He lives in Long Beach, California.

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The Listeners: A Trailer by Luca Dipierro

Hypnotic and disquieting, The Listeners, Leni Zumas’s debut novel, is about not looking at things—loneliness, guilt, Iraq war footage, a sister’s death—and what happens when these things insist on being seen. From the first line the prose is glorious: honest and hallucinatory—like a lucid dream. The wonderfully talented Luca Dipierro created a trailer that brings to life the strangeness and beauty of Leni’s book.

The Listeners from Luca Dipierro on Vimeo.

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Lost & Found: Brenda Shaughnessy

Where’s the joy in a modern balloon compared to one fashioned from the bladder of the family pig? Here’s our own Brenda Shaughnessy on the “sublime humility” of life in Laura Ingall Wilder’s Little House books.

I’ll start by saying I will never apologize for loving Laura Ingalls Wilder’s vivid recollections of life in pioneer America. I gobbled the books as a child and reread them almost every year. The books are brilliant, unlike the TV show, which I also watched religiously. I couldn’t get enough of this incredible story of being an American girl riding out with her family in a covered wagon to live in a log cabin, in a house made out of real planks and held together with store-bought nails instead of hand-carved pegs.  How Ma cried when she finally got to live in a house built with nails! How proud Pa was that his furs or whatever sold enough to buy long-suffering Ma some house nails! I was thrilled for them.

What I do feel a little sheepish about is how often Little House scenes come up in my contemporary life. Last month my entire household was sick with a vicious flu, and I imagined myself in the scene titled “Fever ‘n’ Ague” (which my sister and I never knew how to pronounce and still don’t). Laura, Mary, Baby Carrie, Ma, and Pa were all struck by a mysterious illness, feverish, raving, starving, unable to move. One night Mary cried so piteously for water that Laura’s delirium was pierced, and she knew it was up to her to save her sister. She painfully turned her head to look at Ma, who rasped, “Laura . . . Can you?” Laura crawled, shaking and shivering, across the long log floor, to the water bucket, and tried to keep the water from shaking out of the dipper for the long journey back. She finally made it, it seemed like forever, but she went back and forth on the floor with the dipper filled with water, and saved her entire family! The scene lived again as I, hollowed out with a 2005 flu, made my way to the lifesaving faucet. I did that too, or at least it helped to think I did. I was just like Laura, and, feverish, I couldn’t shut up about it. Now that I am well, I can see that I used Laura and her story to give a bland couple of days some drama. Continue reading

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An Adrienne Rich Memory

During the winter of 1999 I was living in Eugene, Oregon with my twin brother Michael Dickman and the poets Carl Adamshick and Michael McGriff. At the time, Portland was still enjoying (the now sadly absent) Poetry Downtown Series. The series brought in dynamic poets from all over the country and on one cold and rainy night Adrienne Rich was to read. My brother, Carl, Michael, and I borrowed a friend’s car and drove up to Portland for the event which was taking place in an old church along Portland’s South West Park Blocks; a beautiful church with simple architecture and stained glass windows.

May 16th, 1929-March 27th, 2012

When we arrived it felt like Easter Sunday. The church was packed with the Congregation of Poetry. There was a long introduction enumerating all of Rich’s many books, awards, and honors. Then Adrienne Rich approached the pulpit. She walked slow and with the help of a cane. She seemed, from my pew, weak, unsteady. But when she opened her pages and began to read her first poem there was a strength that seemed to descend around her like…well…like a holy spirit.

Perhaps what happened on that stage, poem after poem, her energy rising with each stanza, was like a Holy Spirit or something like Lorca’s Duende. We, the faithful, were witnessing something ecstatic, something special and we could feel it in our bones. After the reading Rich sat patiently and signed over 200 books and broadsides, though I can’t imagine how tired she must have been. When I stepped in front of her, nervous, a copy of Midnight Salvage in my hands, I said “Ms. Rich, thank you so much for everything” and she looked up at me and said “Thank you, thank you for being here”. I know how that must sound. It must sound plain to you, a remark a famous writer says over and over in infinitum. But the way she said it, the warmth, the caring in her voice, it was true. And it was true for everyone she met that night. Thank you for being here. Thank you for surviving this world with me.

Adrienne Rich was, as the New York Times pointed out, a poet of vision who was at the forefront of modern feminism; an intellectual who affected how people thought of poetry, of their sisters and mothers. She was also a poet of great heart, of wild love, and care for the human being in all its different bodies. After the reading my small group of Adrienne Rich Pilgrims drove back to Eugene in a storm that became a soft but constant fall of snow. Perhaps we, four white males, are not the pilgrims you would imagine for Ms. Rich. But it is through poems, through art, through readings like Ms. Rich gave, that one finds transcendence into human compassion, into the beautiful song of The Other. We sat in the snow-quiet night, on the front porch of the house we shared, drank Grappa out of little cheap glasses and read Rich’s poems to each other. We could not get enough. And either could the night: with every poem it seemed like the snow fell a little harder, a little more, and with grace.

As I write this it has been raining for two days, beginning with the morning Adrienne Rich died. It feels like it will rain forever. It feels like the loss of someone like Ms. Rich is limitless… because it is limitless.

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The New Saint Claire Restaurant, by Julie Sarkissian

Right after I got out, I worked at a diner. It was called The New Saint Claire Restaurant, though not much about it seemed new. I was a cook. I’d never been a cook before. I’d done other things. I mean, it wasn’t like it was the only job I could do. But it was the best one, all things considered, at the time.

This girl used to come in and sit at the counter. She never ordered anything. And she would sit there and not do anything. No book, no nothing. Eventually she would say something to Maurine, who worked behind the counter, or Maurine would say something to her. But whatever it was that she said, it was never an order because she never got anything. No coffee, even. And eventually she would leave.

She was pretty enough. I mean, I probably wouldn’t have noticed if she wasn’t. Or maybe I would have. Because if it wasn’t busy I just stared outside of the window. The kitchen window, I mean, which looked out on to the counter. Not a window that looked out on the outside. Those were too far away from the kitchen to see out of.

Anyway. Then one day the girl came in while Maurine was out smoking. When I say she was a girl, I mean a girl. I think. At the oldest maybe she was seventeen. Is that when girls stop being girls? She was right on the cusp. So I’m staring at this girl. Not in a rude way. I was staring out the kitchen window anyway, but there was nothing to stare at until the girl got there. And the girl started to fidget, like she needed some assistance, even though I know she never ordered anything.

So I walked out from behind the kitchen and I said, “You want something?”

And she said, “Yeah. Some food.”

“Okay,” I said, “So order some food. Here’s a menu.”

I put a menu in front of her, but she didn’t touch it.

“I can’t order anything,” she said.

“Why not?” I asked her.

“I don’t have any money. Not right now.”

“Well, what do you like?”

“I like anything,” she said. “Just about.”

“If you had to pick one thing,” I said.

“In the whole world?” she asked.

“No, not in the whole world. Just on that menu.”

“If I had to pick one thing on this menu, I would pick a ham sandwich. On white bread.”

“You didn’t look at it,” I said, meaning, the menu.

“Out of all those things, that’s what I would get,” she said, nodding a little bit.

“How do you know we even have that here?” I said.

“Because this is a diner. Diners have everything.”

“Out of everything, that’s what you’d get?” I asked. We had nicer things on the menu. Nothing too fancy, but nicer than a sandwich.

“That’s what my mom used to make me,” she said. “For lunch, sometimes.”

So I made her the sandwich, and she didn’t pay. And she didn’t say thank you, but I didn’t mind exactly. The reason I did it wasn’t so someone would say thank you.

Next day she was back, and before Maurine said whatever it was she said to her, I made that sandwich and put it in the window. The kitchen window.

“I didn’t order that,” Maurine said.

“Just give it to that girl there,” I said.

“You’re gonna pay for her sandwich?”

“Sure Maurine, I’m gonna pay for her sandwich.”

Nobody paid for anything around there. Not the staff I mean. Sirloin steak, on the house. So Maurine gave the girl the sandwich and the girl, she ate it and left. And that happened again and again. For however long. Weeks. Longer.

So me and Billy, who was the other cook, we got off one day and we left out the back exit, which led to the alley where they left the garbage. And the girl was there. Waiting? I don’t know, but she was standing around, fidgety, but pretty out in the natural light.

“Hey,” I said.

“Hey,” she said. Then she started to walk away which was weird because, yeah, maybe part of me figured she was waiting there for me.

“This the girl,” Billy said. You could tell he liked what he saw. We started to walk faster. “This the girl you’ve been talking about?”

“Yeah,” I said. By now we had caught up to her. We were right behind her, but she wasn’t slowing down any. “Yeah.”

“So tell me, what’s she been doing to be worthy of your kindness?” Billy asked, loud, to make sure she heard.

When you’re inside, every day there are three meals for you. They all taste like shit, pretty much. But somebody picks up a plate, puts food on it and hands it to you. It’s yours. You get fed because that person doesn’t stop to think about why you’re inside. They don’t think what kind of things you might have done and what kind of people you might have done them to. They don’t think, maybe this one didn’t do it. Maybe he’s innocent. Maybe he’s only here because of some huge mistake. Maybe this one deserves to eat.

And so you get fed, and you keep on living.

I slowed down. I let her get ahead of us. She turned right on Flatbush, out of sight.

“Maybe something,” I said. “But maybe nothing.”

Julie Sarkissian lives in Brooklyn and waitresses in TriBeCa. She is a graduate of Princeton University and has an MFA from the New School. Her first novel, This Is How To Find Me, will be published by Simon and Schuster next spring.

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