America has always been the land of invention and reinvention. We hold on to the belief that people forged in the fires of misadventure or tragedy or just plain stupidity can save themselves if they are willing to accept responsibility for their misdeeds and make amends. But can we ever truly hit reset, go back to a pure state? The search for lost innocence has fueled many a quest, both personal and artistic. In this issue we explore some of the ways in which we try to restore the mind and heart. Leslie Jamison, in her essay “Confessions of an Unredeemed Fan,” explores her fascination with the trainwreck life of Amy Winehouse as well as her own battles with the drug that consumed the late pop star. In “The First Wife,” Aimee Bender reimagines and rehabilitates Bluebeard, while Alyssa Knickerbocker draws on the strength of Rogue, Jean Grey, Psylocke, Storm, and Jubilee (duh, the female X-Men) to return her power postpartum. Is there any redemption for hospital food? Jenni Ferrari-Adler makes the case in her Readable Feast. And former Tin House New Voice Jenn Shapland returns with “Illness Is Metaphor,” about the history of consumptives who sought European-style nature cures in the pure New Mexico mountains. The poets will break your heart with their struggles, from pills and booze to blood and the religious ecstatic. Elissa Schappell argues that this country wants to shift back to a fantasia Happy Days ’50s, while Peter Crabapple’s photos document rural Vermont reenactors portraying German and Soviet troops on the Eastern Front during World War II. Hardly innocent or pure, the subjects are transported back to a state of intense clear feeling, theirs and also not quite their own, and just for a moment. Yet, sometimes that is enough. We hope that while reading this issue you have more than a few moments of true feeling. Or maybe one pure, bright moment of clarity that makes you forget all of the darkness.